That is for I think I have a sinus infection. My head hurts so much I want to die. At first, my brain would only swell when I cough. And I have been coughing quite a bit. Now, it just hurts. I just took some sinus meds. I hope they work soon. I can't function and I am seriously neglecting B by letting him just watch TV. Bad mom.
Work sucks. No, it does. I just can't get motivated. I am so scared of being stupid. I just don't know what to do. I wasted half the morning trying to figure out how to go about doing my job. I am trying to document my research and all the relevant information, so I can take stats later, but I feel like I am doing things so slow and I don't know how to stremline them, to make them better. I am not very good at my job. Maybe I shouldn't be a professional. Cause I am not one.
You know when people talk to you, and you can tell kind of what they think about you, by how they speak, I just feel no one thinks I am a serious professional. I dress like one, but I don't feel like one. There isn't that respect. I am just another office clerk. I don't want to be, just another office clerk. Maybe I am not meant to be a professional. Maybe I don't really have it in me. I don't know how to problem solve. Anytime I am given something without insturctions or a map, I don't know what to do. My ideas are always wrong. They are never the best. I'll never be a team leader. I just never will.
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2 comments:
That sounds like a typical bad day coupled with being sick. You are much smarter than you are giving yourself credit for. Tomorrow will be a better day.
Remember when I was kind of new at my job, and I managed to erase the entire firmwide index for the database of all of our corporate tax returns? Just a bad day. Others have been better.
I hope you feel better soon. Sinus infections are no fun. If it is a sinus infection, you'd best get in to see the doctor. They require antibiotics to clear up; it's tough to get those out of your system otherwise.
Take care. Get rest. Feel better. Tomorrow is a new day.
If you look at the people you believe in as being professional, you'll see they screw up, but their confidence in themselves allows them to blow it off and not second-guess their skills. You have those skills. You are a great mom. And you bake awesome chocolate chip cookies!!
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