I finally got my back adjusted this morning. Man, do I feel better. Now, I should be able to some excercises to get rid of some of this dead baby weight.
This pic was too adorable for words. I had to post it.
Today is a good day. Brandon got some vitamin D for the first time today. Of course, he dribbled some of it out. But right after, he smiled at me. I think he liked it. Let's hope he likes it again.
Brandon is 1 month old today. I can't believe 1 month has gone by already. My God! Time is flying. But not really. He is still just an infant who is quite moody. He just knows what he needs.
And to top it all off, Brandon has a bad case of baby acne and he has heat rash all over his face. The weather is just too hot for him. He likes to sleep on mommy. His hair gets all wet and matted. It can't be good for him.
I was finally able to do some planting today. I went off to buy some bedding plants and stuff. Well, I am quite pleased with my work. It took me all afternoon, alternating feeding my son, but I managed to plant 3 flower beds and some strawberries and tomatoes. I am sore all over. I hope my flowers thrive. I would be so happy if they do. All I need to do now is keep up weed control. *sigh* Why do I feel this will be the toughest part?
Well I have talked about my issues and I am still standing firm on what I said. Not to fret everybody. These are just issues with my family. We can all relate to family issues, can we not?
My brother came over shortly after I posted my blog and therefore we talked about the events surrounding my pissy feelings. There were 2 seperate incidents that led to my crankiness. The first was with my mother-in-law, the later with my sister-in-law. Yeah. The In-Laws. Figures!
Well, he helped me come to some realizations about myself. I come from a family of isolationists. We are not big social people. I get that from my dad. He tends to not make an effort to go out and see people unless there is a need. Maybe he was different in his younger days. Who knows? My mother is a little more of the social butterfly. So the need for human contact comes from her, mostly. What a great mix! Ah, not. I also don't come from a big family. Mom, dad and brothers. That was it. That was what was most important growing up. The extensions just weren't around much. We saw Grandma in the Seattle every summer. Maybe Uncle Harry. But that was about it. Cousins moved on years ago. Back in the 80's what the last time I saw them. Don't even ask if my dad has family. I met them once for a family reunion. Yeah, when I was like five. So, the only family I have are immediete. I can't spell.
Also, I am not comfortable with people loving me for no reason. The Conrad's do. There's not reason for it. It kinda irks me.
But, I'm not going to change who I am or walk on eggshells for anybody. So, please don't take my behavior as personal. I am used to getting by on my own. The need for interaction is just not there all the time. Just be patient. That and I might still be having some post-partum moments. Hopefully, that will pass soon.
Now, on the other issue, I didn't heed my own advice on that one. I have no leg to stand on. I'm over that one. Let's just forget it.
Brandon's Big Bald Head. Well, not quite that bald.
Brandon sleeping in his brand new Chenille Blanket. Thanks for the awesome blankey T and H. "It's like sleeping on a cloud."Right now the little punk is sleeping in his vibrating chair. He is tired. He's also beginning to be the boss of his own feedings. He likes to be in control of his position and resists when I am holding him in place. He prefers feeding in bed. That way he can lie down and eat. Already lazy. Well done.
I am starting to get depressed. I don't quite feel like my old self yet. I went out today to go shopping for myself. Well, trying on clothes was depressing. Nothing fit quite right. Also there was a serious lack of customer service in the stores I visited. Yeah, the service industry sucks.
Brandon is cranky. Does he even know what he wants? It is tough playing guessing games with his emotions. Last night, he just would not go down for sleep. Once I put him down in his bassinet, I would get into bed and right on cue, about 5min later, he would start to cry out. Finally, I had to hold him while he slept in my arms. He got fussy a bit, but once I cuddled him, he would ease right back into sleep. I got a few winks too, but it was tough.
Oh great, I hear him stirring now. Good God! Will this child ever get some rest?
Brandon is changing everyday. He looks different as each day passes. I can't believe how much he has changed already. I look forward to all the changes. Yes, even the bad ones.
Last night was a tough night. The temperature got pretty cold and I think Brandon wanted human warmth and comfort to get him through the night. He finally got to cuddle with mommy in the wee hours. He was resting right on my collar bone. (Not comfortable for me.) But he found some sleep for a short time at least.
Speaking of sleep, Brandon is getting some more right now. I hope he learns soon that night time is the best time to sleep. Hopefully he'll learn it without having to be held upside down.
Saw this show called Greenwing last night. That is a bizarre show. It's a cross between Faulty Towers and Scrubs. I'm not sure how I feel about it yet. I might check out one more episode and let you know.
Last night I had this intense pressure on my chest. When I was lying down it was worse. Turning on my side, didn't make any difference in the pain. Only sitting or standing up helped. I'm not sure what was causing this pain. It was like a weight pressing down. I doubt it is a blood clot. Lee seemed to think it might be stress. He thinks I worry too much about Brandon. I don't know. The pain is gone this morning, so I will mention it to my Doctor when I see her next. Hopefully, it is not too serious.
