Realization

Well I have talked about my issues and I am still standing firm on what I said. Not to fret everybody. These are just issues with my family. We can all relate to family issues, can we not?

My brother came over shortly after I posted my blog and therefore we talked about the events surrounding my pissy feelings. There were 2 seperate incidents that led to my crankiness. The first was with my mother-in-law, the later with my sister-in-law. Yeah. The In-Laws. Figures!

Well, he helped me come to some realizations about myself. I come from a family of isolationists. We are not big social people. I get that from my dad. He tends to not make an effort to go out and see people unless there is a need. Maybe he was different in his younger days. Who knows? My mother is a little more of the social butterfly. So the need for human contact comes from her, mostly. What a great mix! Ah, not. I also don't come from a big family. Mom, dad and brothers. That was it. That was what was most important growing up. The extensions just weren't around much. We saw Grandma in the Seattle every summer. Maybe Uncle Harry. But that was about it. Cousins moved on years ago. Back in the 80's what the last time I saw them. Don't even ask if my dad has family. I met them once for a family reunion. Yeah, when I was like five. So, the only family I have are immediete. I can't spell.

Also, I am not comfortable with people loving me for no reason. The Conrad's do. There's not reason for it. It kinda irks me.

But, I'm not going to change who I am or walk on eggshells for anybody. So, please don't take my behavior as personal. I am used to getting by on my own. The need for interaction is just not there all the time. Just be patient. That and I might still be having some post-partum moments. Hopefully, that will pass soon.

Now, on the other issue, I didn't heed my own advice on that one. I have no leg to stand on. I'm over that one. Let's just forget it.