I don't think I want to be a mother anymore.

Everyone abandons me. I lose all my friends. I've lost of my best friends. I think they just get tired of me. They realize that I really am pretty pathetic. It's just a matter of time before Lee leaves me too. He's due any second time now. I never feel I belong anywhere. There's always something that reminds me, that I'm not as connected as I think I am. Who am I kidding? I'm such a brat, anyways. These people have put with me long enough.