Thursday, March 29, 2007

Phat

My mom called me chubby today. She's right. I am chubby. And it's not even baby weight. This was all gained before pregnancy even occured. I used to be nice decent weight. I could fit into size L clothes. Now I fit in x1. I hate having to buy a higher size. You ever notice all the nicer stuff is from S to XL? I did. When I was clothes shopping on Monday, some nice stuff caught my eye. But it was not plus size, so I could not even consider buying it. I hate being plus size. I need to do something about it.

Well, tonight, I just ate an ice cream blizzard-flurry knock-off. That's not gonna help. As of tomorrow morning, I am not eating anymore junk food. Oh man, this is going to be tough. I've done it before. It can be done. It just takes tremendous will power.

That means no more chocolates, cookies, candy, potato chips, cake, deserts in general and no more fast food and no more out food in general. And everything else in between. Like no more iced tea. Besides, my doctor say to avoid the grease and dairy so my hearburn doesn't flare up. This is something I have to do.

I had a dream I was running. I was running in a small town just a ways from Edmonton. I was running to tell T & H something. I was running all Saturday night to find them Sunday morning. They were having breakfast with their son and their gold van was now a gold car. Anyways, I saw them enjoying the moment I suddenly decided I didn't want to bother them. I'm not even sure why I was trying to find them in the first place. Anyways, the sun was up high now. T & H were leaving the restaurant and were loading up their car. Then I turned around and started to run back home. I had to run fast, cause their route home was on the same one that led back to Edmonton. Weirder and weirder, I know. I was running very fast. Usually, I run stupid slow in dreams. This time, it was fast. I had nice thin legs too. Not chubby thighs. I liked it. I want to run. I want to run now.

First, I have to lose some weight. I have tried the exercise thing and I just kill my back. But if I change my diet and exercise together, that should make a difference. I hope. I think I will keep a journal of my progress. It might inspire me to keep it up. That and maybe some cheering from my peeps might keep me in line, too. (That's if any of you read my blog anymore.)

I can do it. I can bare my soul. What the hell! It's only life.

Tomorrow, will be day 1. Right now, I will wait off this inevitable heartburn, that is on the way.

P.S. And no more ice cream too! Doh! :(
Posted by at

3 comments:

Momma Trish said...

I need to drop a whole bunch of weight too. I find most of the clothes I like are size small or medium. And never, not even in my wildest dreams, will I be such a size. Too tall and too large a bone structure. But I'd like to aim for a size large anyway; it ticks me off to be a Plus size. And it annoys me that they put the Plus sizes right next to the Petites! And I hate the fact that skinny chicks work both departments!!

March 30, 2007 10:09 PM
Mary said...

Yeah, I have too large a bone structure too. Size large is as low as I can aim. I was that before and I can live with that again. Maybe we can encourage each other to keep up a healthy change.

March 31, 2007 8:30 AM
rawker said...

If you haven't had regular exercise in a long time, you need to progress in baby steps. Start with walking. Set aside a time -- ideally every day -- where you're walking for at least half an hour. Take your iPod, take the baby in the stroller, whatever. Just walk. No need for a destination... just a few times around the block is fine. Change your route now and then to make it more interesting.

Try to add 5 minutes every week until you're walking for an hour. Then maybe start thinking about switching to more intense cardio. Running, skating/rollerblading, jumping jacks. Start slow: Do maybe 5 minutes of cardio. then rest. Repeat as many times as you can. Londonderry rec centre is close to your house -- when you get comfortable enough, start using it. Ask them about personal training -- it's not just for athletes. Even if you can only afford a couple of sessions, it will be invaluable.

Diet is KEY. No simple carbs: potatoes, white rice, and white bread are all out. Sweet potatoes, brown rice, and whole grains are in. Drop anything with excess sugar: fruit juices (except for freshly squeezed), most desserts, jam & honey on toast. Focus on lean protein: chicken, turkey, and fish. Pork is sometimes OK (but avoid bacon -- try turkey bacon instead) and so are lean cuts of beef (like sirloin). Eat fruit as often as you can. It's loaded with vitamins and gives your body just the right amount of sugar. Cantaloupe, strawberries, and green bananas (not yellow) are all excellent choices, and make good desserts! Cut way back on dairy -- kids need a lot; adults not so much.

Good luck!

March 31, 2007 4:01 PM

Post a Comment